The truth will set you free!

 As we all well know I'm not really a "blogger" as much as I am a I post shit on my blog when I need to vent about something thats pissed me off or upset me or what have you so here is the moment when i clear my mind of the thoughts trapped deep inside there and get out what I think needs to be said, and you can feel free to read it or move on either way its OUT!


  The last few weeks things have been brought to my attention, not just things that directly affect me but some others I care about and friends, I'm gathering that there seems to be an epidemic of moronic and stupid reckless behavior going on around the country, and it happens to be affecting me and others as well so let me just clear the air.


  There is absolutely nothing in the entire universe I hate more then a liar, its bad for both parties involved, so dont do it. Let me give you some sound advice on friendship, people who love, and respect you wont lie to you, and you as their friend deserve better.


  I have recently been lied to by someone close to me, and at first I was pissed, I tried every imaginable scenario I could possibly muster in my over-imaginative brain to find a place where this was a reasonable, realistic, or even optional choice. (I found nothing) For those of you that really know me who really understand who I am, I love my friends and family unconditionally, If I have come to a place where I believe life without you is unbearable, you can tell me anything without fear of judgement or  ridicule. I dont promise to agree with your choices I dont have to believe your actions were sound but I wont think less of you as a person for them, I understand shit happens and it isnt always they way we'd like it to be. This being said someone still felt the need to lie about meaningless bull shit for no reason other then they just like to lie apparently as I'm learning! So at first I was pissed, sad for about an hour then I realized I wasnt really as hurt as I thought I should be, maybe I knew things werent really how they appeared I'm not sure but what I discovered was my disappointment. Disappointment to me is worse then being pissed, I felt betrayed because not only did I get lied to but someone who knew me really knew me thought so little of me to think that I deserved that treatment.


 I will tell you this as a friend NO ONE deserves to be lied to, if someone feels that you are such a horrible UN-trustworthy person, they need to lie to you, they aren't your friend. I've been in situations when i've had to tell people close to me really difficult things, things I know will hurt them or piss them off and I by no means will lessen that and say it was easy, but I had enough love and respect to tell them because I knew they deserved the truth.


 If you can't let someone into your life to offer them the honest opportunity to know you, you're only hurting yourself. Your depriving yourself the opportunity to be loved for who you truly are, and thats something everyone deserves, and by lying to them about who you are changing yourself to fit what you think people will like your depriving them of the chance to know you and really love you and you're selling them short, and its a slap in the face when they find out you didnt think they were good enough a person to let them in.


  If someone in your life is treating you with such little curtosey you're the only person who can stand up for you, you have to demand being treated the way you should be treated, and I know I'm a better person then that, and I deserve honesty and trust. 


  Who knows maybe my standards are too high, maybe people arent as caring as they once were, but this I can tell you , I have people in my life that have reached the bar I have set, and I know its a possible goal to reach, and I would rather have 2-3 Really exceptional friends, then to have 1500 fake friends, who follow me on twitter and facebook, who have no clue who I really am and wont be there when I really need someone I can depend on. I'd rather drive 2 hours to hug someone who I really care about then to wake up to a couple of likes on facebook,


 You cant replace true friendship, and once you find it you should never take it for granted because once the trust is gone, you have nothing left. We teach people how to treat us and its time we start requiring the people in our lives to meet our standards.

Idiots that irritate me...

 Some things Highly irritate me, I have a short temper I'll be the first to admit that tiny things can send me over the edge, past the point of no return and blazing through the black hole of insane in a matter of minutes. Regardless of how hard I try some times I just can't fight the sheer stupidity of others, it's infuriating to me.


  We all know of my hatred for shuffling, mouth breathers, lazy rude assholes this isn't quite the same as that.
 I absolutely loathe Fake people. Say what you mean and act the way you feel. This is a huge pet peeve of mine, it seriously makes me a psycho. 


  I can't stand anything less then when someone says and acts one way in private, then acts a complete bi-polar opposite in public. Well, just cause you put on an act that you're a good human being in places where people will see you doesn't actually create the illusion you're a good person in the eyes of people who really see you.


  I'm a firm believer in when you make mistakes you apologize for them, if you choose not to apologize it means you aren't sorry, and you think you said the correct thing, behaved properly, or honestly meant what you said.  Ignoring the issue and moving on like nothing ever happened and then attempting to go on behaving as if nothing happened makes you look like a fake, condescending hypocrite. And that's not a good look for anyone.... And for the record you can trust that I have never once apologized for something that I believed was right (and attempting to get me to is a futile experience because If I think I might even be 1/2 right-it wont happen), However I have put on my big girl panties and said I'm sorry even when I was completely humiliated by my own behavior and wanted nothing more then to hide my own shame...But I did it cause that's the right thing to do


 Also don't be a complete asshole to the person who is trying to fix a problem someone else created, its irritating to that person they have to fix someone elses mess just like it is that you have to wait for someone else to fix it. Calling them names, cussing, and yelling at them really isn't going to make their desire to correct your problem any stronger it's very counter productive, trust me!


 Also when you have a job for the love of Gawd do it, there is nothing more infuriating then a lazy ass who does nothing all day. spends their time wondering around and leaving extra work for others. Also if you have a job that is way to advanced for your mental capacity QUIT, If you need to carry a drool cup, or wear a helmet at all times, you may want to see employment building bird houses. Other people do not want to do your work for you, they want to do theirs and go the hell home.There's no need to have an idiot on both ends of the phone.




  I think that should just about sum up my rant...for now!

Thanksgiving!

  So this year we decided to have a :friends thanksgiving feast! nothing better then spending a holiday with your most favorite people ever!

  So after I planned and plotted,. it was time to execute!, I cleaned and decorated and rearranged for days. I woke up in Thanksgiving day with just a few minor things to finish up, and I was on it. I was almost 100% done when my beautiful little daughter says the dog has something on her, and I dont really give it to much thought while I'm mid mission. Only to discover that while they were outside together the dog has managed to cover her self in poo while on a leash supervised by my daughter--UGH I already cleaned the bathroom So I give the dog the best bath tub wash I can muster without destroying the bathroom, and I'm back to my mission.

  So I got everything done and together in time, and we all had a wonderful evening!
So thankful for the wonderful people in my life!!

My husband the NOT so hopeless romantic....

   So today the movie Pearl Harbor was on and, Ben Afflick stole a police boat, to drive Kate Beckinsale (sp), over towards a large navy ship and took her up on the pulley system they use to clean the boat. and I turn to my husband and say, "You never stole a police boat to take me on the side of a ship"


   That's when he busts it out. "Its because I love you, haven't you learned whenever someone is romantic in a movie some bad shit happens, and I'm just doing this to protect you from the tragic events"  (His actual explanation was longer but this is the jist of it)


I pause, I said " So you're telling me you're purposely not being romantic because you're trying to protect me from natural disasters, and the perils of life"


  He says "Yes, I do it because I love you"




   SIGH! this is what I have to deal with!

In case you were wondering I love you!

  Sooo there is this guy who pretty much stole my heart. We may not always agree on things, like what to eat for dinner, or that the bath room would look fabulous if it were a beautiful shade of grass green, or that 77 is the perfect temperature (and it is), or that socks and sandals are not ok even to just check the mail in. But I love him, and he loves me. 


  I'm willing to except that I have some pretty stupid ideas of how things should work and trust me I have ideas about EVERYTHING! and even when he thinks they are stupid (which I'm sure is about 95% of the time) he never says "hey thats a dumb idea" unless I'm about to obliterate half of the neighbor hood. 


  He accepts that I'm a insecure, anxiety ridden, neurotic mess at the most idiotic times, and he always reassures me that I don't need to worry, but I do it anyways, and he knew I was going to even before it happened.


  He hates my love of insanely expensive, and highly impractical shoes, but he buys them for me anyways, and makes sure I don't bust my ass when I insist on wearing them to the most unconventional places like the grocery store, or on cobble stone sidewalks.


  He tells me I'm the most beautiful woman he's ever seen, when I look like I just awoke from a night of sleep in the county morgue, in sweat pants, with flock of seagull hair, and raccoon eyes. And while I'm pretty convinced he might be hallucinating, I'm honestly starting to believe he thinks its the truth (I might need to get him a psych evaluation) but its nice to hear.


  I've never been able to pin point the exact moment when I realized my life wouldn't be complete without him, or, when I discovered he is my complete opposite but it works, maybe it was so natural it just seemed normal from the beginning, I don't know that I'll ever really be sure.


   What I do know is that he'll always be there for me, he'd move heaven and earth to be with me and the kids, he's a wonderful father, he's a much better person then he gets credit for being, I'm positive I'm guilty of not telling him enough. 


  So for the Record, in case I forget to tell you as often as I should its here in text, for you when you need it.


  I love you, I think you are easily the most spectacular man I have ever know, you are easily the most unlikely match for me but the perfect match for me, I could never say thank you enough for all the positive things I have in my life because of you, you will never fully get the recognition you deserve because I don't know enough words to express the way I feel for you and the thesaurus didn't have enough words either.


  You are an exceptional Father, the kids will be better people for having experienced your love, wisdom, and smart ass sense of humor. They will one day understand the effort we have put forth to make their lives better, and the sacrifices that have been made for them. And when they do they'll love you even more if thats possible.


 You're tireless efforts to make our lives better, filled with happy memories and wonderful moments, don't go unnoticed, or unappreciated.


  I know I'm kind of a pain in the ass, ok ok a huge pain in the ass the majority of the time, but you love me in spite of it all, and I can never say Thank you enough for putting up with me. I know it's not always easy! Just know that I love you beyond words, and I can't imagine a life without you in it. You always say you just want me to be happy, congrats, because you're what makes me happy I love you!

Frustration!

   I'm having trouble grasping the idea that some girls can not see that that they deserve to be with MEN who treat them right. Regardless of who you are you deserve to be with someone who loves you for the person you are, accepts your flaws and loves even when you a complete neurotic mess. You should NEVER be with someone who makes you feel like shit 24/7 who speaks poorly about you in public, and in front of your children. 

   I have two friends currently in this situation, I can not for the life of me see how they can tolerate it. I may be partial, because they are my friends, but they are both beautiful human beings inside and out, and they have the most despicable awful mates. I want to pop them upside the head and scream WTF are you doing. If only they could see their selves they way their friends and family see them instead of the way, they have started to interpret themselves through the bs they have had projected on them, maybe they would see.

  Having to sit back and watch this knowing I can do nothing to help them is a huge struggle for me, because I'm a very honest person who will tell you exactly what I think sometimes even when I'm not asked, and I want to bash some skulls when I hear the stories they tell it enrages me, I hope it gets better for them, because I want them both to be happy because they deserve it, and I hope they know that!

 

It's Good to be loved....

This almost never happens, relatively quiet playing together, its so nice to see even if it only happens for a few minutes every GREAT once in awhile <3

      

 SO this must be why my feet are always numb Hmmm. lol